Part 2: a universal WOW

Where to begin… I'll start where I left off with the last bloggy blog. It appears that on May 15, I was experiencing a shift. And I rode that one through and through… and through again. The 'fun' part of life, is that the waves are relentless. When I thought I had ridden the last bit of one wave and landed comfortably in a new seat, making plans for my next year in St. Louis, a new swirl began.

Actually, it was more of a tilt a whirl swirl-- I felt like I literally was nestled into a comfortable, secure carnival ride seat. And I should've known, as with a true carnival ride, the stillness is only temporary. Right when I thought I was set, WHOOSH! I was spun 180 degrees to a new path.


I'm moving to Florida.

What?! I know, right. Sarasota, Florida.

As I stated the other day,

My life is real-er than ever and doesn't feel real.



Screen Shot 2014-08-06 at 7.57.36 PMAlmost one complete year ago, I had the same feeling of sharing,

Wow. Thank You.

Coming from author Anne Lamott, she suggests that when we pray [speak, wish, hope, manifest, ask for…] we're either saying help, thank you, or wowwww. I like this. I too, think that all of my moments of request can land into one of those three categories.

And again, like a year ago, I'm feeling a new wave of awe and gratitude.

Not to say I haven't been saying, 'Help me!!!!' either, but ups and downs… whheeeeeEeeEeee!

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Back to being real-er than ever...

Although this is a move spurred so suddenly by my boyfriend getting the job we were wanting for him to land within the next few years, I was reminded lately of a neat way to look at intention-setting.  Natalie Hornsby was telling me a mini Kabbalah lesson. Here it is in a nutshell for you:

When you go to bed at night and look out your window, no trees. You wake up in the morning and there's a great, big TREE! Does that ever happen? Well, logically, no. Because just as big trees don't come out of thin air, nor do big shifts in life.  We plant seeds of intention, sometimes for the same intention [mine's living a beach-infused, laid back, warm, lifestyle] over and over again. AND then we water those lil' intention seeds [in my case, lots].  AND THEN in the true course of life, they grow and appear one day, possibly when we're least expecting them [in my case!!].

Boom. And like that, the big tree appears and at the time and in a form I did not expect to see! The challenge then comes to finding comfort outside of the comfort zone.

I'm a clinger! And I'm having so many emotions daily-- I love the beautiful people I've met in St. Louis; I love my amazing parents and extended family, all in Missouri; I love the work I've done and projects I've been involved in here. I love that the city smells absolutely foul like dirty, brewery feet and that on my way to work I've gone from Kirkwood suburbia to nitty gritty, city living.  I love how the spring, summer, and fall are, well, seasonal. I do not love the winter. I love that I met an awesome man as he randomly landed here last early summer. And I love that now we're doing this thang together.

I love you all.

Nearly three years ago, I drove here, crying, worried about what I was doing moving from Columbia, Missouri to St. Louis.  I cried and cried. And it all worked out magically.

And now I've cried and cried and I know it will all work out magically.

I'm gonna go climb this big tree I created and tended to for the past, hmmmm, 29 years.

You're all invited to come to my beach pad, play in the sand, and soak up the sea breeze whenever you need a dose.

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Be the Sand Crab!

Life on and in the warm sand… ocean waves lapping to shore as THE daily soundtrack… living on local, fresh sea life… yes, yes, and another yes. My future? Yes, however currently the life of a sand crab. Seeking inspiration lately for a yoga class, I went perusing through my vacation photos of the Dominican Republic from March. Me and crabs (at the beach) have an interesting history. I remember my first beach trips with my parents back in junior high leading to me running and screaming away from the little crab holes in the open sand. Through the years, our relationship leveled out. With a new understanding and confidence (I am after all a GIANT to them), I learned to get close, stare 'em down, and giggle and their movement.


Have you watched the things? TOO funny. In a world of land creatures, including humans, that move mostly forward and backward, these little dudes move sideways. Front-ish, backward-ish, but mostly sideways.

They act fierce until they can take your staredown or picture taking no longer and run away laterally! Insane.

Lately for me, I've felt a shift. Without going into detail, I can pinpoint THE exact day when I felt a 180 degree tilt; choosing a new path at what felt like a fork in the road.  And this tilt is all mental and emotional. That's truly all it takes to make a tremendous, VISIBLE change in your life. Thoughts to words to actions.

I've heard opinions for years, ever since I began to realize my dharma of sharing yoga with the world, on how to do it.  Very interesting when what I 'preach' is to create your reality, anything's possible, manifest, dream… and others are telling me how [they think] I should be doing this.  Admittingly a softie, I accept others' words and ideas, still not internalizing them because I know in my gut and heart what, when, and where I should be doing. And what I should be doing may seem completely sideways to people; not standard, and seemingly crazy (more like daring).

Imma be the sand crab. I've taken the intensity of the so-called giants staring me down, but I'm gonna move my own way down to the next patch of beach and you better believe my dreams are coming to fruition.

My advice from others lately and now to you: reclaim your power. Choose your path. Stay on it. Listen to your gut's and your heart's intuition. Your way is THE way. And sometimes you gotta scurry sideways and be the crab.

What/Who/Where is Worth Anyway? Part 1

What/Who/Where is Worth Anyway? Part 1 For weeks, months, heck maybe I've reached the year mark, I've been debating with myself, 'when to blog again?'. The even bigger question arose as I would ponder topics and continuously hear the 'itty bitty shitty committee' [i cannot take credit for that term, but fully support it] say, 'Booooo… not blog worthy'. So, finally today an even louder voice took over and said, 'Who decides if it's worthy? What makes it worthy? What does 'worth' even mean?'

Well, according to, worth = good or important enough to justify, or having a value of. What I'm deeming of worth today, worth enough to post my first blog in basically a year (WHERE has the time gone??), is in regards to life. The universe. And all the happenings here and in between.

Being a Yoga instructor, I mainly see roomfuls of faces and bodies ready for a physical ride. Envision a tree with eight branches. This is the Yoga tree. And of Yoga's eight limbs, only ONE is about the physical stuff-- poses of stretch and strength. Lately, as much as I LOVE the physical fun, I feel more inspired by tapping into the other seven.

What's swirling around us daily that we either neglect to see, are completely unaware of, or are too preoccupied to notice?

Sometimes there's a message to get. Sometimes it's easier to stay in cruise mode, put on tunnel vision goggles, and pretend that I don't know there are deeper rhythms to constantly tune into. And sometimes those rhythms become way too out there and instead of instinctual feelings and subtle hums, they turn to voices, auditory statements-- walking and talking cues to LISTEN UP.

Lately I've experienced my universal messages in many forms, including several walking, talking beings more than eager to tell me what's up and to also remind me to tune in to my intellect and inner wisdom. To turn off the tunnel vision and cruise mode and instead shine the bright po-lice flashlight on ME and what's happening to me and through me.

This has led me to question: WTF, Universe??

What's cool, is that ultimately it is a choice to cruise mode through the days or not. 'WTF, Universe?' is definitely necessary to ask from time to time and then notice the answer:  trust life. The answers are there, always, still in the form of life, of random messages, of letting go and trusting life, and opening up the feelers again. Of living from instinct and heart, and still being wise enough in the mind center to know how to analyze my actions, others', and to know when action needs to happen. Really happen.

Realizing that today marks a full moon in Scorpio (look it up if you're into that stuff) and that it's a time to look deeper, I now know the simple skimming of the surface of every facet of my life must now turn into deeper action.

Stay tuned for Part 2 . For now, decide if it's ample time to cruise or not to cruise. To wear the goggles or not. I know for me, blinders off and easy cruise now turning into strong, focused, push pedal strokes. Namaste...

Freshen Up Yo' Week! (And maybe detox from Cinco)

SLIDE into your fRIDEday DELISH! Originally from 'The Flat Belly Diet,' a diet several clients of mine have followed (successfully!) in the past, this water is SO good. The lemon and cucumber are natural diuretics, the ginger and mint aids with digestion.  Great way to boost your Spring detoxing! And get creative, there are sooo many other tasty fruits, herbs, etc that could be added I'm sure!

In a BIG pitcher (preferably glass) combine: 2 liters or 8 1/2 cups of fresh water (use good quality water, filtered if need be) 1 teaspoon fresh ginger, grated 1 medium cucumber, peeled and sliced thinly 1 medium lemon, sliced thinly 12 fresh mint leaves – spearmint or other

I also add a cut up lime... because I love lime.

WASH the fruits and veggies, cut, mix with water and enjoy. Letting it marinate overnight will of course allow the flavors to infuse the water a little more thoroughly.

Drink up!

Yummm... Greeeeen...


Green smoothies. They're everywhere! I was hooked on a few that Dr. Oz featured months back, moreso the breakfast and lunch options. My roommate watched the process/listened to the blender as I was pretty good with these things for a several weeks.

"You need to show me how to make a green smoothie!"

"There are sooo many, it depends on what you want to put in it!"

She took matters into her own hands. The next thing I knew, a new hit smoothie made its way to our humble home. It's a great base-- you could probably add in many many things. I added flaxseeds. She added blueberries. Any nut butter would work, though after a year long break up with peanut butter, I'm having a PB fling again [sigh].

It's easy, cheap, and tasty! And hey, with literally the greeenest holiday right around the corner, how appropriate is any emerald colored drink? :)

You'll need a blender and:

1 heaping cup of kale and/or spinach, fresh and/or frozen

1 banana, fresh or frozen

1 cup of almond or coconut milk (we like unsweetened vanilla of either)

1 tsp of PB or another nut butter

squirt of lemon juice to ignite the vitamin C of the greens 


1/2 - 1 cup of ice cubes

1-2 tablespoons ground flaxseed

1/4 -1/2 cup frozen fruit, blueberries are the only attempt so far

optional stevia packet (dang sweet tooth...)

** and note it's gluten free! Paleo! Low calorie (watch the nut butter!) Low carb!-- All those good things

DRINK UP! And believe it or not, you will probably start to develop cravings for [possible gasp]... green smoothies!?

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Cruisin' with a 'tude

... a 'tude of GRATITUDE that is!

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SO! It's been a week since my last post and I'm okay with that :)  It's been a wild, wickedly fun week, probably beginning with the fact that I could breathe and talk again with regular Bekka voice (cleared sinuses! Wahoo!)

I headed home to Columbia for about 15 hours Tuesday. Cruised down I-70 and met up with some of the coolest people I know for a fun, jammin' time at the Blue Note.  Obviously, Trops was the meeting place and we made sure to barge up front and center for the show.

Grateful for my friends! For safe travel! Trops! A vehicle!  What are you grateful for?

My rockstar posse

The Dirty Heads

I've said it a trillion times and I'll say it a trillion more, music heals! Restores! Enlivens! The beats booming through my body were like medicine; along with the love oozing from these amazing friendships-- it was a fab night.

Cruised back to the big citay on Wednesday, pleasantly surprised to have an awesome, big group for the ever growing Wednesday Deep Stretch class I lead. About half were athletes-- a demographic I'm all over when it comes to baiting newbies to this crazy lil thang called 'yoga'...

Grateful for my hobbies and passions! For the spread of yoga to new faces and bodies! What hobbies and  passions of your own do you thrive on??

Before I knew it I was back on the train Thursday, rollin down the rails to Jefferson City. I was thrilled to see my folks, my oldest (now pregnant!) best friend, and see some shining faces at my hometown studio haven, Yoga Sol.  Cruisin' through CoMo, I ran the Forum hill and down an old route. It's funny how you can feel almost like you're in a time warp as your memory snaps through so many recalled images, runs, memories, feelings and more as you place yourself in that place from the past. Always a cool feeling.

GRATITUDE seeeeeping from all parts of me.

Friendly faces showed up for my SUP (stand up paddle board) Yoga talk at the Alpine Shop and I made some new friends; grateful for cool people with cool attitudes, and especially the ones that hug you right away. Spread that love.

Cruised on back to tha Lou. Grateful for safe transportation!

And what theme did I organically share with my Sunday classes, unplanned? Gratitude. And randomly what did my roommate state after we caught up on each other's weekends? "I'm SO grateful for it ALL."  Amen.

Gratitude flows and fills. Gratitude flourishes and helps to fabricate our dreams and desires!

Cruise with an [atti-] 'tude of gratitude. Realize how many little (and big) things in your day are incredible and deserving of a thank you!  The outstanding people you see, perhaps interact with, LOOK at them. And THANK them. :)

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And in the midst of it all, music found me... On a SUP youtube video, and as soon as I go to buy it on Emusic , there's an interview with this kid. Just sayin'..

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Monday BlogDay: Part Uno

Monday BlogDay: Part Uno My creation this morning. I've always had a fluid stroke with the paint. I have to be feeling the moment and this morning, this is what happened! One stroke turns to the next; a new idea hits and then it's in color. This project is far from done, so I'm excited to see how it will continue to evolve! I'll share more later, but for now digest what this brings up...

To me, this represents the inner work that's done and felt; the fiery core of yourSelf that you must ignite and reignite periodically. And consistently tending to and fanning those flames. Find your fire today! What stokes you up!? Set your intention now and create this feeling today, tomorrow, or the next. Know that it's a never ending process, an ever-changing feeling, and most importantly, a process of LOVE, BABY!